The truth hit me! Hard in the stomach. It happened last week. As the proverb says: "Knowledge is only a rumor until it lives in your bones." Things I have been saying for years. Over and over again. They have been coming out of my mouth, but have def. not lived in my bones. Now they do. And there is a sort of peace and calm inside. Just the knowing. Peeling off layers that have been added over years and years. Layers of comfort and numbing and protection against projec

A few years back I was standing by the stove making dinner. I remember it clearly, making meat sauce, the spaghetti boiling. I was flustered and trying to do to many things at the same time. I was trying to talk to my son (think he was 5 or 6 at the time) about what he had to do to get ready for the next day. He was not cooperating at all. We were arguing and I remember that I tried to calm down and so I did hunch down to try to have my face next to his. He was really upset n